Seems I arrived on this video a year late...well, sort of.
In my case, I was researching Theosophy, Aliens stuff, the Paranormal, Astrology, Numerology, Symbolism; many things. Now let me be absolutely clear; I am not saying don't study these things, no no. Do! But if you're going to kick a door in, better remember to stack up first.
I was never motivated by anything other than the search for truth and goodness. I did believe that the Christians were being a little superstitious about labelling everything as 'Satanic' or 'demonic', and basically saying "don't look at it". Now I am a contrarian at heart, and when I see a bunch of people saying don't look at this/don't speak about that, I am naturally going to do exactly what they say don't do. (Yes I am aware this can be a weakness at times, as well as a strength at others). ESPECIALLY if they don't make a logical case, and you know - I'm sure Christians can take the criticism - how demagogic these fellows can come across as. You know who I mean, the ones who seem to enjoy telling others (usually atheists) how "you're gonna burn in Hell". Logic is not exactly their star quality.
I could probably write a much longer post detailing every strange thing I can remember that happened to me either before, during or after sleep, or just during the day, at this time (sort of Feb-May last year, mostly). It could get a little repetitive, though; what follows is a summary.
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I will tell you what started it all off. I was listening to these things before going to bed one night, particularly the 396 Hz was what I hold responsible. Being awake and able to think and see, apparently, when my eyes were actually shut (which happened only this one time, at 4:44am exactly), sort of an 'OBE-lite' I guess.
A couple of times I experienced a mild version of the suffocation thing but thankfuklly with no accompanying figure as described above; had the most horrid surreal dreams, although to be fair not all were horrid; and oh yes the times, always the times, all the 11s and 33s and 3:33 4:44 5:55 etc etc etc ad nauseum. I recall I went three days in a row randomly glancing at the clock to see 11:11 am, so unlikely given that I did so at most every half hour.
Once, a bee started buzzing all around the (closed) window like it was trying to get in. So odd, usually they move on after a few seconds, but it kept going for whole minutes, it wouldn't give up! So I researched if there was a meaning of the bee symbolism and of course it is a Merovignian bloodline symbol and of importance to Masons too.
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When I was nearing sleep, I repeatedly - by which I mean about once a minute (must have been hundreds, maybe thousands of times overall, just became routine) - would drift into a state where I couldn't move for about 3-10 seconds, which I always got out of by consciously trying to move my toes, as you are supposed to do to stop sleep paralysis. No idea why that works but it does.
Once I was so convinced that my brother was in the room behind me that I started talking only to turn around and nobody there, oh boy that is going to mess with you. I mean, all this stuff causes sleep deprivation, just totally messes with your wellbeing. (I never engaged in ritual or any of the other practices described in the video. Also I never had quite such clear visions/confrontations as others with more severe sleep paralysis describe.)
So what changed? In the end, I simply apologised to God. And that's it. No secret. No mystery. Only the short bursts of sleep paralysis continued, until the absolutely surreal - well I can't just call it a 'vision', because it was more than that - of my own death that I recounted here on the blog back in I think August or so. And since then nothing. (What are the odds, if we are looking for a 'rational'/conventional explanation?)
I mean, you can believe what you want to believe. I am not a demagogue; perhaps your 'path', so to speak, is different to mine. In fact, of course that is the case. But what I'm saying is, take it or leave it, don't underestimate the demonic. I arrived at the conclusion, not out of 'belief' but out of empiricism, that the Christians had a point.
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